ahh.. the midterm limbo.
from february 6 to 10, mechanical engineers have their midterm week with no classes. becuz mechatronics are under our department as well, this resulted in 4 of the 5 students in our house to be out of classes and in study mode. everyone knows what study mode is like. sitting in front of the books.. forever. of course, we were not so easily focused, and distracted ourselves easily. the first exam on monday went okay, but it started going downhill from there. our focus level.
the days soon become mixed with awkward periods of sleep, smash brothers, walking around the house, guitar, and.. oh yea, studying. thankfully i was more confident after the 2nd exam, and it went okay for me. but just the TASTE of that week totally threw off living.
the week after, i had my psych midterm on tuesday, so i still had to "study" for it. i didn't really study for it, cuz i just didn't care about it, but i thought i knew enough to get through it, which i guess i did (not as well as i thought). lifesong, an annual outreach event hosted by uwccf was also coming up, and for some peculiar reason i volunteered to write the script for the drama. after i was "in commission" to work, after exams, i got started on it. unfortunately there were many disagreements with how the script should be like, and many versions had to be written, as well as many different changes. i ended up not going to school for many days of that week.
the week after was reading week for the school. except for math and engineering students, of course. while everyone was out there having fun, i still had class. well.. not really. we still worked on the script, and i continued to miss class. tuesday of that week was an IRS day or something like that, where grads go around parading into our classes acting like idiots about how they graduated and got their engineering ring. it would have been a nice sight to see, but i'd prefer to sleep in after sleeping at 4am for consecutive nights. but in any case.. classes were not gone to.
for 3 weeks, i haven't been a full student. the feeling of being in the house almost constantly, sitting in front of a computer screen working on the same thing for hours upon hours. what happens when u do the same thing over and over again. ur mind becomes rigid. stuck in a box. my mind wouldn't think of anything else but the script, sleep, and not wanting to do the script (or anything else, for that matter).
now today was the beginning of reading week for us. i sit and think what's happened for these past three weeks. ironically, i realized that i had no drive during these weeks. what is a christian to do at times like these? what is any normal person supposed to do? a person can't live in a box with just one or two things on their mind.
soooo what to do now? shane and shane's song "God did", though it has nothing to do with what i talk about.. my favourite line of the song..
"are you ready to live?"
victro
