Tuesday, July 28, 2009



沙龍

對焦 她的愛 對慢了 愛人會失去可愛
記低 這感慨 世事變 有沒有將你淹蓋

只一格 經典的偶遇已 不再
儘量框住目前大概

留住 溫度 速度 溫柔和憤怒
凝住 今日 怎樣 好
捉緊 生命濃度 坦白流露 感情和態度
留下 浮光 掠影 飛舞


每張 都罕有
拍下過 記住過 好過擁有 光圈愛漫遊
眼睛等色誘
有人性 鏡頭裡總有豐收

雖則那 即影即有售罄 菲林都已拆走
但是衝動用完 又再有

留住 溫度 速度 溫柔和憤怒
凝住 今日 怎樣 好
捉緊 生命濃度 坦白流露 感情和態度
停下時光 靜止衰老

登高峯一秒
得獎一秒

再破紀錄的一秒
港灣晚

山頂破曉
摘下懷念 記住美妙
升職那刻
新婚那朝

成為父母的一秒
要拍照的事 可不少


音樂 話劇 詩詞和舞蹈
揉合 生命 千樣好 攝入相簿
絢爛如電 虛幻如霧 哀愁和仰慕
遊樂人間 活得好 坦白流露
感情和態度
其實 人生非虛耗
何來塵埃飛舞

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

i wonder whether the quality of my character is dependent on my surroundings.

is it silly that my usefulness, power and effectiveness can be changed only by changing my surroundings, and not by changing myself from the inside?

Saturday, July 11, 2009

little victor's new day at school

it's a big day for mommies and daddies to send their little boys and girls to their first day of school. they get all proud and excited that their children are starting their first real phase of life, and really, are they not paving their way to their future, the oh so bright and successful future?

doctor, lawyer, engineer?
businessman, fireman, batman?

mommy and daddy give their last look as little victor jumps out of the car, lunch box in hand, little backpack with his favourite superhero, depending on what's on tv that day. they probably wonder how long it'll take their little boy to make friends, and to learn his multiplication tables. then they drive away into their own world.

so let's look at how big a day this really is for the little boys and girls.

little victor trods along the halls, and the halls are filled with little students. they were all going to their classrooms, and they knew where to go. but little victor is looking around, trying to find where to go. he was fumbling in his pockets. i think he's looking for his schedule or something to tell him where to go. he searches in his backpack and still doesn't find anything. he looks frustated now, because he's furrowed his little brow.

a seemingly older boy who knew where he was going gave little victor a light slap in the back. "over here, boy. you're going to be late". little victor looked up at him and realized he had no choice but to follow this older boy. he knew where he was going, just like all the other little boys and girls. the older boy directed him to a classroom of other little boys and girls just like little victor, and little victor stepped inside. he looked back to thank his new friend, but the older boy was gone before little victor could say anything. by himself already, he walks into the class and takes a seat, as the teacher was already going through the attendance.

so the multiplication tables? the teacher's starting to hand out the notebooks, and eager little students are flipping through the fresh white pages. chalk touches slate, and the class begins. some students are copying, some are not. look at their faces. little victor's brow is furrowed again, as he has copied the notes on the board, but suddenly has stopped halfway. he puts his pencil down, staring at the board. then he looks out the window. some students look over to victor, but after a glance, they continue to write in their books.

it was recess time. all the little students run outside trying to figure out what fun was. some went to the swings. some went to play ball. others were climbing the park. little victor was overwhelmed by all that selection. some boys were playing handball over at the nearby wall, and that was the closest thing to him, so he went to play handball.

it was getting close to the end of the day, and little victor still had that look on his face, that there might have been a better choice for him here, but he still went with the other choice instead. or he's able to figure something out, but instead he waits it out for other people to figure it out and would not actually figure it out for himself.

maybe school will be better next day.

mommy and daddy, there are some things that happen on the first day of school that you just won't think about.

the problem of sleep #3

having finished a pretty important phase of life, i'm starting to transition to the next phase. people would probably have different names for what i'm going through now, be it a vacation, holiday, freedom or whatever. i think an accurate name for it is unemployment.. or funemployment. i appreciate the free time to just do whatever, relax and do what i want to do, when i want to do it and not have to worry about anything.

it's definitely been good for that, but a lot of days are just not really planned. as a result, there isn't really a reason to wake up, so the obvious idea is to wake up whenever you wake up.

so comes my talent again. my tendency to sleep in until i no longer need sleep, i found myself waking up first at 11. then 12. then wake up times got later and later. at the same time, while i sleep until i wake up, this causes me to stay up later because i've slept enough during the day. my bedtime is shifted later and later. meal times also get shifted, and sometimes i only have one meal a day. this sure can make food expenses a lot less haha.

i do try to occupy whatever time i have awake with meaningful things, but of course it feels like i don't have enough constructive time in a day. i can't say the dead of the night is motivating at any rate to do productive things, and would wait till the morning/afternoon. but sometimes there are things that i do not have time for but still want to do. such is p90x. i usually end up coming home and realizing that i have to work out, and end up doing it at 1am. it doesn't take a genius to see that this increases my heart rate and blood circulation, which makes me stay up later. also i would eat something to recover, and it doesn't take a genius to know that eating before you sleep isn't so great. so i would stay up a bit later to let that pass.

i've been offered several solutions, such as making all my appointments in the morning or set something in the morning such that i have a reason to wake up. stop sleeping late and stop working out late. force yourself to sleep early. i'm trying as hard to get out of this as you guys are trying to give me solutions.

how bout that problem of sleep.