little victor strikes again

a big part of life is based on how you react to circumstances. if those circumstances are especially difficult, then life becomes a test of how well you can deal with it to lead to a desirable outcome.

my sleep schedule depends too, depends on where i am. during school.. i get to decide on my own. though the guys i live with, we try to keep an eye on each other, gotta be able to wake up in time for class, i would say that i have the most sporadic sleep schedule out of everyone in the house. usually i would aim for 1 or 2, usually doing work then. but on bad nights, i could be awake at like 430 or later, for no apparent reason. troubled mind, issues to think about. but that's not the point.. the point is.. that i usually aim to sleep at 1 or 2. in the beginning, around 11 or 12.. but ha that usually doesn't last.

but at home it's a different story. if i'm back at home, usually for work term.. then my family would want me to sleep at like.. 11 or earlier. they are very adamant on it too, and have not so good methods in coercing me to do so. drives me off the wall.

bad situations only lead to worse. left angry and disrespected, more doors open to darker paths. soon it becomes a inner war of self-control and self-discipline. the hardest kind.

yes, things are bound to be bad, everyone knows. but it's how you deal and react with things that make it better or worse, right? make one wrong decision, say one wrong word, and things will go downhill so easily. i must say that things haven't been fanstatic with me, and i've been going downhill a fair bit.

little victor strikes again. weird to see myself say this, but i start to see myself more and more like a kid, needing to learn about myself, what i want, and what i should strive to become. gotta pwn that victor jr.